25/08/2016

Well how should i start off? Let's just start whatever i can think from my mind.
I just feel that maybe he doesnt love me anymore? That's why he said that we have nothing to talk about. When sometimes i wanted to tell him how was my day and he either just replied me "okay can", or he just showed like he doesnt even care at all. Yet he still said that i got nothing to talk to him. I'm doubting myself maybe i wasnt the right one for him. Maybe im not fit to be his girlfriend. Maybe im just a lousy girlfriend. Maybe if i leave him, it will be good for him.

What he did today wasnt what i had ever expected. And yet he did it again for the second time. Just because he want to see a chiobu awhile he said walk faster, awhile he say walk slower. Am i really nothing to you, do i really have no feelings or what? Yes, i know all guys sure got see pretty ladies. But you dont have to do it until like you wanna follow her see her when you are with your girlfriend right? Obviously i will get angry. You want to see chiobu you can go yourselves. I want to walk faster and wait for you at the top. The worst part is he came behind me and pulled my hair HE PULLED MY HAIR and pull my hand to slow me down while i was walking up on the escalator infront of that chiobu, infront of everyone on the escalator even the opposite escalator people saw it. Do i look like i have no feelings at all? How could he do that to me in public again. This was not the first time and i dont wanna talk about what happen on the first time here. Obviously he did all those to me i already have no face to stay still there so i continue to walk away. And then he catch up behind me. The first thing that came out of his mouth was, " This will be the first warning that i am going to give you!" with his angry face. What have i done to deserve to be treated this way. Someone please tell me am i supposed to be treated this way. He still can meet his friend for coffee and chitchat while i was sitting beside him. He was not even sorry for what he did. Im very broken right now and disappointing at the same time. Maybe i was born to let people treat me this way? Or maybe i was just not good enough for him. Maybe he doesnt even need me at all. Maybe to him, im nothing. Maybe im just the worst girlfriend in this world. I dont know anymore. I want to cry so badly but i didnt. Maybe im used to all kinds of treatment from the past. Or maybe im just too broken to even cry.

03/07/2016

Hmmm i dont know how should i start this post but i have something to say..
Im sorry, i had made a fuss out of a stupid thing...
I shouldnt be mad at you the other day. It was my mistake for not making things clear and just be mad like that.
You could have talk to me in a nicer way to let me to cool down first but you didnt, and you seems like you doesnt really cares at all. If im mad, you'll just let me be like that and go to sleep like that. If you really cares and you're downstairs my block why didnt you give me a call or something. I was hoping and waiting for at least a call from you to talk it out but i waited till i fell asleep in that angry mood.
I know i was wrong in some ways, but you shouldnt gave me all the replies that will get me even mad and pissed off till i really cant control myself that day. And i dont even know why am i so pissed off. My whole day just fk up for the next day and you dont even care. Everyone has feelings. I have feelings too. I care so much for you because i know that everyone needs to have that someone to care for them or to take care of. Why do i care so much about people around me? Is it because im a busybody or something? No. Is because i understand the feeling of not being cares by anyone is terrible.
Upon hearing that you were sick the next day, even though i had made up my mind not to talk to you until i stop being mad, i was actually quite worried about you whether someone will be there to take care of you but i was still childishly mad and gave you a cold and short concern.
Im sorry again i wasnt there for you when you fall sick. I wished i was there to take care of you. You know what, somehow you're part of the reason that i've changed so much. That worst princess attitude of mine disappeared after i met you. That urge of wanting to take care of you and wanting to become a better person. Im really thankful to have you in my life and it is something i cant lose at all. Im sorry for always turning nothing to many things. I'll try my best to be more mature. I love you always.

29/06/2016

Well, i dont know why i decided to blog again? I guess im really happy today. And i want to blog it down so that i wont forget about what happen today.

It wasnt a special day today in fact my plans of watching movie with bae was kinda ruined as i have to meet up my friends for project discussion in the late noon. So i thought of eating the mini melts at Vivo that i heard from one of my friend mentioned that it was nice.

We were wearing matching black outfits and shoes. Oh and same coloured hair.
Fastforward to our lunch part..

We had good korean food and great view as our seatings were able to view the Sentosa and cable cars. I could never forget the taste of my food especially the soup. It was delicious. And being able to eat with him in such a great view is somewhat i always wanted to. Knowing that he also like the food that i order, i gave and feed him almost half of the meat. Seeing him happily eating makes me want to feed him more.

After filling up our stomach, we went out to have a walk and sit down enjoying the wind, the views and took some photos.

What's next? Of course is time for mini melts which was why we went all the way to Vivo. We order cottoncady with cookie and cream. It was nice tho but honestly it just taste like icecream. Just that they made it into mini balls and put them into a cup that looks like a cap so that it looks special and cute thats all.

And that's the end of our date as i have to do projects. Really dont want to end it right there.. I want to spend more time with him before he go NS.. but no choice too. Still, its a happy day!

Going anywhere is fine for me, as long as is only you and me.
I love you ❤

Happy hours❤13.03.14

Hey! Had a really great day out with my bestie, Jessica! ☺ We started the day with Prata for breakfast! It's been long since we had a meal sitting together chatting and joking around like idiots!:b Always so comfortable with her, I can eat as silly as I can infront of her too. Blahblah and so, we sat there for almost an hour~ As you can see from the photo, she's a very shy girl. So It's really hard to take a picture of her, always failed!

Later on in the noon, we went to town to shop and eat. She nearly couldnt walk as we were really walking around for the whole afternoon at 313, h&m, Cine, Centrepoint, Orchard Central..etc.. And ofcos, lunch we had Genki and Coldstone. Tbh, it was our first time buying the icecream and it taste quite nice.

We walked for hours and we didnt really buy much things. I came by to a shop at Cine that sells accesories and bought something from there but abit not worth. Anyway i already bought it, no point regretting it now. And ya though this is really not important but yea we saw Bryan lee with his new different gf AGAIN! SPEECHLESS..Okay back to myself, i bought shoes at CP and Jess didnt buy anything at all! And she rushed me home because she want to meet her boy! Haha! So ya, to sum up everything with just two words: Happy day✌

12.3.14

Hey! Today isn't a bad day after all! (:

Went to the library to borrow some books. Had a short catch up with Jerral at Suntec! Hehe! Bought him a wallet for his belated birthday as I promised to buy him a pressie! Lala~ And we talk about many things that happened recently. This and that! Ofcos, shared with him my problems and how stress i really am! He's one of my best guy friend who is always there for me! ☺ So glad that I have a friend like him who really cares for me. In the late noon, i saw Colin and Dave! Tbh, i was really happy! Its been long since i met them! Miss all my bros! Wish to meet up with them soon! That's all for the day! Short and sweet! 

A different thurday?

Hey! Went out for breakfast with my primary school darling today and she got me a small little strawberry cake! How sweet of her!♥ So, today was the releasing of Nlevel results. Miss her alot too!! And some of my friends had done quite well, congrats to them! (: Had a lunch meet up with Lizhen and her friends at hub and had a little chat. Later I went back to work till 9:30 at night. Did alot of stockings today and today's sale was not bad!:D  That crazy uncle came to look for me to buy 5 wallets again. Seriously, I hate serving him! He's really annoying. Those 5 wallets he bought also not expensive one still at there talk like big boss.  What's worst was, when he talks he keep poking me. Wth. You want talk then talk, don't touch people.  Okay, talk about him, now I damn pissed alr. I already hide away from him when I saw him, but he still managed to find me. Don't want other people serve, only want me. Wah, pekchek. Suan le! It's over anyways. After work, I went home together with Amos , talk awhile and I go off at my station then home. I was kinda sad that I cant go for the 2 chalet BBQ today, but no choice.. Okay ba, shall stop here . Can't wait for tmr! Going out for movie again!:b

Half good half bad day

Woke up early in the morning having cramps till I can't get up of my bed. Meeting with Irvern for breakfast was canceled as I woke up late and I only had 3hours of sleep! /: Shouldn't have watched dramas last night! So, I skipped my breakfast and off for work in the noon.

Later in the noon I went for lunch with my new friend working in a different apartment . Me and Amos went to eat Wanton noodles together! He's a Chinese by the way (; And a nice, friendly guy who helped me alot! So, I gave all my Wanton to him because I eat Wanton noodles without Wanton de! XD Today's sale was damn good a few k! Muahaha!! My commission high!! ^^ Anyways I cut my finger again while working. These few days keep accidentally cut myself. Not very please at all! It was bleeding and was so painful but I got no time to wash my wound, the worst part was no one actually have a pack of tissue with them. So, I have to let the blood flow and dry by itself. No choice, today's sale was super busy!

I just ended work and decided to blog in the train!:) That's all for today! ~ I'm hungry now! Haven't had dinner yet!